Gwen-hwy-far/Jennifer's Page

At this moment I am experiencing the "Shaman's Death"; my back and neck are so out of alignment after a huge carcrash (broken neck) that I have to be litterally rebuilt, after the neckbrace is removed (already took 9 months).
This is a very painful and scary process of about twelve months is which my back, pelvis and neck are re-allignd by the best doctor in Holland.
All prayers and good wishes are very welcome!!
Let the healing begin..


Twin Flame Love

Twin Flame Love

The beautiful man in my painting is my Twin Flame; Harald Oden, he was the leadsinger of the Symfonic Rock band The Great Plains, a very musical, sensitive and beautiful shining Soul.. The music here is his, so is his singing.

My Twin Flame and I could only be together for 3 years, I searched for him all my life, I knew what he would look like in this incarnation. I had an image of him in my heart ever since I was a little girl; we talked to each other telepathicaly, and at night we would visit each other and play among the stars.

Then when we both felt a pull coming from Amsterdam, we moved there from the other sides of the country, to arrive on the same day of the same month of the same year.
Both of us went to the same place one Saturdaynight and both had a out of body experience where we were told about the other One and seven days later we returned to this place, called La Luna (The Moon) and met each other in real life;
So, there I am, dancing with my eyes closed, when I feel the energy change. I feel a presence coming up behind me and going around me in a big circle. My breathing immediately gets erratic and my heart feels like it is going jump right out of my chest. He circles to the right from behind to the front.
All I am thinking is; “Is this him? Is this him? Is this him?” My heart is pounding, butterflies are flying in my belly and all kinds of feelings and emotions bubble up at the same time. When he is standing in front of me I open my eyes, ever so slowly, and see him for the first time.
I am blown away by his presence, his energy, his appearance! He is truly the most beautiful and most amazing man ever to have walked this earth! Now I know what they mean with love at first sight, this is how that feels. I am speechless, awestruck. My Heart’s Image has come alive right in front of my eyes! Not someone looking like him, but truly him! In person, alive!
I am so overwhelmed that I am struck utterly speechless. We simply look deep into each other’s eyes, he takes a step closer to me, looks deeper, I sigh and feel myself standing naked before him, not in body, but in Soul. My heart skips a few beats. Then he smiles broad and radiant, from ear to ear, showing perfect teeth, I smile back and then he dances away, jumping up and down the dance floor, like a very happy child, leaving me breathless, with a unsteady heartbeat and shaking my head in disbelief that we have finally found each other! I am trying to steady my heart and get my breath back. I am stunned, totally perplexed.
Later that night we see each other again; he walks up to me through the crowd and asks me; “You are Libra, right?”
I reply; ”Yes. And so are you.” He says; “Yes.” And with these words it feels like we open an ancient door that had been closed for many eternities. All this time we have been searching for each other, knowing the other one would be behind that door..
We look at each other in amazement. Both completely awestruck and smiling. Again we part.
At the end of the party we meet for the third time; I am waiting in line for my jacket and we stand together quietly for a few minutes, just enjoying each other’s company, feeling the energy of being near each other, and still not quite comprehending everything.


Hey girl, listen to me
I’d like to have a chat with you
Do you remember the day that we met
Love on first sight
There’s nothing we could do
Nothing we could do


We married soon, and created extatic Heaven on earth. Our Love was and is truly Divine; it healed us both on every level, and my Beloved grew so much in Light that his body could not contain it anymore; he passed on to The Other World after six months of cancer.
I miss him dearly. I long to hold him in my arms again and see his smiling face. Oh, his smile would light up the world. People loved to be around him because they felt he was sincere and beautiful, and really saw you as a person, he looked right into your soul.
Like a lion he protected me and like a mother he nurtured me and he would sing for me everyday.
I saw the Universe in his eyes. It was like looking in a mirror and seeing my Self looking at my Self with the most loving eyes, understanding and knowing all and by this; loving everything. When there are no secrets, there can be only love..
Oh, My heart will not stop breaking, event though it keeps on beating. I feel cut in half since our parting..

To express my grief and undying love for him I started to paint. All my feelings and emotions I expressed in them; I let it flow out of my heart into my hand and into the canvas.
All the oil paintings here in the photos are my work.
They can can also be seen here; www.aurora.exto.nl

My body and soul still yearn for him, and I long for the day when we will be reunited again when I finally release my last breath, it will be with a sigh of happiness, because my Eternal Beloved will be there to lift me up in his arms and swoop me of to our house in Heaven and I will finally be Home..

I feel so blessed to have had him in my life. I know now that there is a God/Goddess, because to create such a magnificent, shining being like my Beloved Twin Flame there has to be a God; I have no more doubts, now I know and I thank you, God! Thank you for such a blessing..

This is a poem he wrote for me when he was still walking the Earth, it reveals his Soul;

Two full moons ago I made a silent vow
I would try the best I could
To treasure what you're giving me
By showing me the way

So don't be afraid when your darkest hour comes
Cause I will be there to guide you to your light
Don't be afraid when the shadows come to haunt you
Cause I will be there to stand there at your side

You know to me it's hard to see
That someone really cares
But you guide me to my centre
Where I've got so much love to share

So don't be afraid when your darkest hour comes
Cause I will be there to guide you to your light
Don't be afraid when the shadows come to haunt you
Cause I will be there to stand there at your side

I hope you can imagine
Just how much you mean to me
And I hope that you can see
I love the love you're giving me

Harald Oden